Keep Calm, It’s the End of the Semester

I am so stressed out!! I have so many papers to do and tests to study for. I feel like I have no time because I work everyday. By the time the weekends come home, I am exhausted and don’t have the strength to do anything. Now I have no choice but to do them. Now I am angry at myself because I made friends with this girl who I was supposed to be studying with. Rather than make things easier, she made my life more stressful. I just texted her saying I would rather work alone. I can’t deal with her anymore. She may not like it but whatever. I have to think about myself first. I don’t need the extra stress. I got to do what’s best for me. I had to put my foot down. Now I’m gonna be losing sleep so I can get my work done. I need to try to keep calm, it’s the end of the semester. 

No New Friends

I really don’t want to be friends with this girl. I’m trying to avoid her right now. She wants us to study together but I’m no longer interested. I have too much to worry about already. The last thing I want to worry about is whether I finish the study sheets on time or whatever. I want to do things on my own and on my own time. I prefer to be alone. I enjoy my solidarity. I feel like she is invading in my desire to be alone. She calls me and texts me. I don’t want to deal with her anymore. My problem is that I don’t know how to tell her that I don’t want to study with her and not continue to be friends with her. I liked it how it was before. I don’t think I am willing and ready to make new friends right now. I had a hard time with ending a friendship with someone. So it’s going to take some time for me to trust someone and be open to starting a new friendship. I feel like we were are on two completely different paths in life. We see life differently. She’ s younger and she’s just starting college. I’m 21 and I’m about to start a new venture in my life. I need to think about myself for now. I am not interested in making new friends like that. I need my solidarity back. I don’t know how to tell her. It’s hard for me to say no. I have to find a way to tell her because if I don’t, I don’t think I’ll be happy. I want to an authentic friendship and deep companionship. I have to be honest with her. I can’t deal with her anymore.

I’m about to join #teamnosleep until the end of the semester. I have so much work to catch up on and studying to do. I am willing to do anything to get the job done. I need to graduate. 

I am going to be taking a break with working out a bit. I need to focus on school for now. I have a lot papers due and exams due. I won’t have time to go to school, work, and go to the gym. I’m wearing myself out. I need to focus on what’s really really important ans that’s school and work. I have enough time to work out after I finish everything I have to get done. Months ago, I was not this busy. I was only focused on school. Now I have a busy schedule and I hardly have time for myself to cool off. I can’t wait till this semester is over. The end is always the hardest. I hope God can help me make it through. I need the strength and I need to stay focus. 

I know what MAC lipsticks I want. I want Please Me & Ravishing. I’m planning to get it soon, since my graduation is coming soon. I definitely want please me for my graduation. It’s such a pretty color.

I want/need to get NYX eyeshadows and a MAC lipstick. I need it for my graduation. I want to look glamorous. I normally don’t wear makeup everyday but I want to for my graduation. I know what look I want. I want neutral lids and either pink or orange lips. I to look good. It’s a special day.

My Healthy Lifestyle Regime! (by UglyFaceOfBeauty)

Her regime obviously worked because I see the the difference.

My Weight Loss Story →

I love Angela’s weight loss story

Weightloss Secrets & Giveaway (CLOSED) | uglyfaceofbeauty (by UglyFaceOfBeauty)

My Weight Loss Inspirations

• Grace from uglyfaceofbeauty (YouTube, Tumblr, & Twitter)
• Angela Simmons
• Mel B
• Dezirae from Dezirae B (YouTube)

These people are my inspiration to strive to lose weight. I love Grace’s transformation. Her body looks amazing. She’s looks fit (in my perspective) and she has a nice ass. Angela Simmons and Mel B have great workout ethic. I just saw Angela’s weight transformation and she has changed completely. She has always looked  great but she looks even better. Mel B has a great body too and I love her workout dvd. Dezirae shared some great healthier alternatives that could help me. I feel like these four will help reach my goal. I look up them to keep me motivated and focused.